Becoming deaf in one ear
“When I first experienced hearing loss, the change was so slight, I wondered whether my ear was temporarily plugged up or if it was something else that would go away in a short while. Initially, I just switched my phone to the other ear and continued on with my life, but the hearing never returned. Little did I know that the cause was an acoustic neuroma, and that within eight weeks of my diagnosis, I would experience single-sided deafness,” Kris explains.
“Deafness in one ear is such an intense experience. It is so isolating – no one can see the disability, and they expect you to perform naturally. And you can’t.
The hardest part for me was bringing my son, Parker, home from the hospital and worrying that I wouldn’t be able to hear him. It was heartbreaking for me to not know whether my son was crying and needed his mother.
I also found it difficult being out and about in public, and even with friends. I was constantly trying to figure out which side to sit on or where to stand so that I could hear and be present in the conversation. I would smile and agree and have no idea what I had just agreed with. I felt that people were tired of me asking, ‘What? Excuse me?,’ and I was so exhausted trying to be involved that I would just give up asking,” Kris continues.
“I would memorize answers. If I was going to the grocery store, I knew they would routinely ask whether I’d prefer my groceries packed in plastic or paper. So, I would preempt the question, or if they asked first, I would be ready with my answer. I had an infant son and, of course, people were constantly stopping me to admire him and ask questions. So, I had answers ready before they asked: ‘He’s a boy and he’s six weeks old.’ ‘His name is Parker.’ ‘He’s my first child.’ Other times, people would speak to me on my ‘blind side’ and would just stare at me, expecting an answer. I’m sure that they thought that I was being rude.
When I was driving with my husband and sitting in the passenger seat, it would be so hard to try to hear. The fatigue my neck felt from trying to angle around so I could hear was a huge strain. What a relief to have my Ponto Pro. I still automatically swing around my ‘good’ ear and have to remind myself that I don’t have to do that anymore,” says Kris.
My Ponto treatment
“I received my Ponto Pro four months after my craniotomy. The surgery was very easy. I just had to care for the wound site while it healed, and then my Ponto Pro was fitted three months later.
When I first put the Ponto Pro on, I felt like a kid on Christmas morning. I was in tears. I just wanted to go out into the world and have people talk to me. I couldn’t believe that I could pick up sounds on my deaf side. I was startled by sounds that I had forgotten were there. After only one year, I had forgotten so many of the everyday sounds that people with normal hearing hear all the time. I was so thrilled, I made my surgeon give me a hug!”
A newfound freedom
“Just knowing that I don’t have to compensate for my ‘blind spot’ is so freeing. Now I can hear the sounds Parker makes when I’m holding him and feeding him. When he wakes up or is making little sounds in the backseat of the car, I can hear him.
You don’t know what you’ve missed until you start hearing things again, like footsteps or running water or the sound that my dog’s paws make when we’re out walking on the pavement.
At least once a day, I cover my good ear and am blown away by the things I can pick up with my Ponto Pro. It’s very comfortable and I wear it all day, except when I’m showering. Most of the time, I don’t even realize that I have it on.
No one notices it. But I’m proud of it. I’m happy to answer questions about my Ponto Pro. I guess I think it’s silly to have any kind of stigma about wearing it. It has made such a positive difference in my life. I just think that the technology is amazing. I want to share information about it so that I might be able to help someone like me who could be using it right now,” says Kris.
Getting it for the first time
“I feel that I need my Ponto Pro as much for my family as for myself. I’m 29 years old. I have a long time ahead of me, and to live in the darkness of no sound would be just as much of a loss for my husband and son as it would be for me. Now my husband doesn’t have to sit on a specific side of me. He doesn’t have to make the extra effort to confirm that I’ve heard him. I have to remind him, ‘Michael, you don’t have to check with me anymore – I can hear you now!’ He can even talk to me from across the room,” Kris explains.
Why I chose Ponto Pro
“I did a lot of research and I literally didn’t make up my mind for a month or two before I chose Ponto Pro. As a person in medical sales, I felt it my duty to research my options. Since bone anchored hearing solutions are implantable devices, I did not make my decision lightly. I talked to surgeons, patients and company representatives. There is no question that I made the right choice with Ponto Pro. I told my doctor, ‘I want the most advanced, newest technology out there.’ In the end, I chose the Ponto Pro for its performance, ease of use, attachment mechanism and commitment to technological advancements. I like the look of Ponto Pro and its ease of use. I wanted a device that I could touch and easily reach the button. I love my Ponto Pro!
I’m telling everyone about my Ponto Pro. I am part of an online community of people with acoustic neuromas on the Acoustic Neuroma Association’s website. I am one of the first people to get the new Ponto Pro.
I hear so many stories from the members of my community about the problems they’ve had with other bone anchored hearing devices – sending them back for repair or dealing with feedback issues. They can’t believe that I’ve had no problems with Ponto Pro!”
Confidence on the job
“I am a salesperson for a medical device company, and I’ll be returning to work from my maternity and recovery leave soon. Just a few months ago, I had no idea how I would ever go back to work and be able to do my job. Having my Ponto Pro just gives me another layer of confidence in my ability to do my job right.
I think that this whole process has helped me to understand that hearing loss is not just something you deal with as you grow older. You never know which way your life will go. There is such a sense of finality when you are told you are going to be deaf. It seems mind-blowingly permanent. Just knowing there was an option that I could pursue gave me the hope to keep pushing forward. If my story can help ease other people’s fears and spread that awareness, I’m all for it,” Kris concludes.